




At 6:20am in the morning I watched the sunrise. It was the most breath-taking, beautiful moment of my life (thus far). There was a blanket of clouds just beneath us and in the distance you could see the sun rise in a clear sky. It was truly magical. I watched as it lit up the world and heated the air.
When I turned around I could see the scree for the first time. At that moment I thought – these people are crazy. Are we really going to climb that thing? It was enormous, monstrous, beautiful, frightening, a challenge I’ll never forget.
Today’s hike took the life out of me. I realized the limits of my mind and my body and I got a good idea of what hell might be like – I do not want to end up there.
Today’s hike was 9.4km – up to 4700 meters above sea level. We hiked through an alpine desert, which they called ‘The Saddle’. It was absolutely brutal. Not only was the sun beaming hot but there was nothing in sight. Just a few rocks and it seemed to go on forever – which also made it difficult when we had to pee. Fortunately there were a few toilets along the way.
This was the day that I learned how to count to 10 in Kiswahili, and if it weren’t for that I may not have made it to the Kibo Hut. I would count over and over again while I watched the steps of one of the guides, Stanley, in front of me, who kept saying ‘Pole Pole’. I never knew walking so slowly would make me so tired.
At one point I had to even give my daypack to one of the guides as it was slowing me down. About three quarters of the way there we could see the hut in the distance, and it seemed that no matter how long we walked for it just didn’t get any closer. It was absolutely brutal! In the last twenty minutes I started to feel overwhelmed with exhaustion and I didn’t think I would make it. Fortunately, with Stanley’s help, I did. I sat down and the first thing I saw was a woman storm out of the sleeping hut and throw up. That was the longest day of my life, followed by the longest night of my life.
I started to get even more sick as the time passed. We were supposed to have some tea and go to sleep. The plan was to wake up at 11pm and start the rest of the climb. You have to make it to Gillman’s Point by around 6:30am and then climb to Uhuru Peak before it gets too hot – otherwise you just can’t breathe and it becomes extremely dangerous.
I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t lay down. I couldn’t sit up. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t even throw up after a while, cause I had eaten nothing. When everyone got up to eat dinner, I took one bite and I couldn’t taste a thing. I had lost all ability to taste! That was when I made the decision that I could not go any further. I would have only felt worse and would not have made it to the top.
Kiyan was the first to come back after an attempt to climb the scree, then Sameer. Masi and I had stayed behind. I was up the entire time just praying that the sun would come up so I could climb back down the mountain. I had to wait until one of the guides could take me so at 7 in the morning I left the rest of them and headed down. After about half an hour I was feeling brand new – and I was starving! I had to wait at Horombo till the early afternoon for the rest of them. But I was happy to find out that Kamal had made it to the top.
Making the decision to quit was really difficult for me. I felt like a failure, like I had done something wrong. After many tears I started to think and I realized something – I had gone father, pushed myself father, than I had ever been. And that is an accomplishment in itself. I know I’ll be back and that’s what matters.
That afternoon and night we didn’t have too much energy to joke around or play cards for too long. I think we were all just anxious to get back to Moshi.





































